Today we just got the listening practice at class and you know how did it feel like?? it is really harder than you imagine. I do know why; even though, i have been practicing for such a long time, it doesnt mean that my listening skill get improved. It is really a long way off for me to be good at English. Nevertheless, I will not stop practicing and trying to be the best what i have. I truly eager to master English by my own self because i wanna show that i can be more than this after all. It seems impossible but there is nothing to fear to face it then. So many books i've learned, so many references i've read, so many sources i've got; but still, i cannot improve my English well, though. 

Maybe, i need extra time to study harder and harder because i think, i have wasted my precious time this all along. Then, i wanna make through, no matter what it is. I must discipline my mind to be more concerned what i can do for my own future. Just step by step, everything needs a proper process and i have to do practice gradually as well as possible. 

Probably, i have to be more serious with untouchable books of mine right now; such as Oxford Dictionary, Collins, and so on. I know that, i have left them behind. I have ignored them for a long time with ridicolous reasons. This time, i will not the same again and again because i have promised to my lovely mom that i have to be a good person. This stuff is always dancing on my mind all the time and it absolutely annoys me a lot. 

Well, i've promised myself wouldnt do that anymore. Then, keep my chin up and we face this world together ( what does it mean with "WE" ).

I think that is all for me today because i have BM ( Bahasa Melayu ) class this afternoon.

Have a nice day
TTYL

Regards

Akbar Haqi